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Sep. 25th, 2010 | 11:37 am

Being a black sheep is hard.

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well...

Sep. 18th, 2010 | 09:16 pm
mood: frustratedfrustrated
music: Florence + the Machine

I hate what football and politics do to people.
On a(nother) random note, journaling and listening to the Shawn McDonald CD are like therapy.

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Aug. 26th, 2010 | 06:30 pm
mood: frustratedfrustrated

blehh.... i was wrong. what's wrong with meeee?? why can't i do what i want to?

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and i'm gaining self confidence, yet lacking so much.

Aug. 23rd, 2010 | 01:33 pm
mood: whateverr
music: Florence and the Machine


Wow, I haven't written here in a month! well, I did the deed. well, the nose thang :)
I am excited as ever to be going back to UM. Of course that will most likely change when I've been there a month. But right now I'm happy to be moving back. i have a lot of what I need, and have a new shell and keyboard cover ordered for apple, my favorite computer. :) Also some pretty awesome rainboots! What I'm most stoked about is probably my little projects. Yes... I am excited for feathers and paint and canvas, and all those other goodies.
Oh yeah, let's not forget my giant john mayer[shirtless ;) ]rolling stone poster I am most likely taking with me to school. sorry giant edward poster, you've been replaced. you actually have for a while :/
so, i'm sad the summer is ending on one hand, sad because I no longer charge taco bell meals every other day, sad because I won't get to see my fun christina-listening crew as much, sad because no more sleepovers :(((
but on the other hand, so happy. and SO excited to reunite at our annual black friday sleepover. its gonna be "off the chain." plus we will be going back to high school band festivities like the band geeks that we are.
i'm getting hungry. so..... yeah :)
oh wow i use a lot of smileys.

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peacock feathers

Jul. 19th, 2010 | 10:09 pm
mood: uncomfortableuncomfortable
music: regina spektor

I want to get rid of this yucky cold for good. thanks to my bloody sinuses, I couldn't get my nose pierced when melissa did :(. I was close to saying screw it, and getting my eyebrow done instead. But I shall save that one for later. I've been taking this cough syrup that makes me sleepy, and therefore not taking my zyrtec. So now..... my mouth is swollen. Anyone would say it is an extremely weird feeling...and it is, but i am very used to it, so I guess it doesn't bother me so much. I have a lot of creative things I want to do: paintings, collages, dorm room decorating (when the time comes). I want the room to have peacock feathers in it. Buying the stuff to do these "creative things" is what the holdup is. I also want to buy peacock rainboots. That's my new favorite "pattern" i guess you could say; I love peacock feathers. I've been slightly de-cluttering my room at home. I like it.

I'm going to miss my friends here so much when I go back to school! And when melissa goes to Auburn. It won't be the same. But we've had an awesome summer so far. There's proof: my bank account has taco bell charges every other day. I've introduced mel to the amazingly hilarious tv show will and grace, and we've went to a club for the first time. We've been well acquainted with christina aguilera's new album. We've stayed up late at sleepovers... late enough for me to be highly delirious (which i think would be equivalent to me being drunk; im crazy at 3:00 am) and to watch New Moon and narrate to it in weird voices.

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Jun. 23rd, 2010 | 11:36 am
mood: crankycranky

 I want to get my nose pierced. nowww..... or, actually, in july. hehe

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all of this sounds weird to a regular person.

Jun. 18th, 2010 | 12:01 am
mood: okayokay

 I think I have come to a realization that animals simply must be a part of my future job. Every time I hear stories about them, or see pictures or are around them, my heart lights up. They are so magical. It sounds extremely weird. You are probably thinking I'm crazy. But it's what I'm most passionate about. It's like my calling has been here right in front of me, staring me straight in the eyes. Well, not necessarily my calling, because I have no clue what kind of job I really want... but my passion is so clear. Animals are amazing to me. And if you think your job is amazing, you've succeeded in something that unfortunately not many people do these days. 

I want to visit The Gentle Barn soooo badly. They take in abused farm animals and let them live out happy lives with other animals and humans that love and care for them. But it's in california... :(   Well...all I have to say is, when I finally make a trip out to cali, that's the first place on my list. I've got to visit and meet the wonderful people and animals. 

Again, all of this sounds weird to a regular person who may be neutral towards animals or who likes them but doesn't have a burning passion to help them... but, I want to make a difference in their lives. I want to be compassionate to them and show an animal who may have been severely mistreated or cheated by a human out of a happy healthy life, all the love that the human race can offer. that not all of us are like that. i want to show them a different life than they've known. one with companionship, kindness, and love.  

oh yes---every american should watch food, inc. the movie. it will be hard to watch, but we need it. 

Well... I went to ecclesia with brit tonight. I forgot how much I love and miss the people there. I miss UM slightly now. Can't wait to meet the freshmen that will be coming to ecclesia. Hopefully I can be a good example and friend. Or vice versa-who knows? they will probably help me to grow. I wish I could have gone to orientation this week... but work is in the way unfortunately :( 

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i still want to want Him...

Jun. 8th, 2010 | 01:30 am
mood: confusedconfused
music: hanson

Sometimes, actually the majority of the time, it's difficult for me to pray.  
But contrary to my frail, fallible feelings, I will listen to God's very word.

I absolutely love this verse, and have ever since I learned it. 
"In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express." -Romans 8:26 (NIV) 

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I think you will come to your senses, eventually.

May. 30th, 2010 | 03:54 pm
mood: okayokay

www.youtube.com/watch -this song makes me happy. 

We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.
-Romans 7:14-20

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May. 30th, 2010 | 12:09 am

I am crying, I need you, and you are not here. You said you would be.  

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